I would say my life wasn't always shitty but thanks to the blunt harsh truths my older sister’s can't seem to stop sharing with me I've realized my brain does an amazing thing. You see I've never been the one to get into any confrontation of any kind in fact you can piss me off as much as you think I can handle and yeah I may look like I'm ready to take your head off but I won't utter a word. silence is my weapon and seems to be working pretty well. The quieter I am the more pissed off you become. Isn't there a saying about holding in your feelings too much? Ah well, like they say YOLO!
I am also super forgetful. Like within 2 seconds I had already forgotten what you had said. I can't remember anything of my childhood. Well not anything but most of it. Like I said my sisters woke me up from the dream of my childhood not being so bad. I won't get into details, at least not now. But man was my childhood crappy especially when I think about how my husband spent his days growing up. Going all over Europe, learning new languages, and meeting people of every culture. I don't who to blame. Our country or our parents. Although in my situation it could be both.
That's the main reason why I want to travel. I love learning new things, getting to know new people, and learn about the vast majority of culture we have out there. When I went to Germany the difference that stood out was outrageous. The style was different, but the way people interacted was what stood out most to me. Here in America when you go to the store the checkout lady or man is usually conversational. Not in Germany, there they barely even say “HI.” to you. at first I thought it was rude but I realized that's just who they are.
Americans, we are instinctively nice. You know how we fucked up the world so much? That's why. being nice and compassionate is our way of making you feel safe and keep faith in our nation. Although in truth we have dramatically declined not only nation wide but world wide. Personally I would love to be Europe right now. Drinking VERY cheaply, meeting new people who never had the luxury of being downsized, and enjoying the unpolluted air and water. I know things may not look good there right now but think about how long it took for them to get to this stage versus America. After Hitler of course.
How long has Amsterdam been drug legal? And here we are finally legalizing weed but not having a problem with pharmaceutical medicine. Did you know now they don't even allow blue dye in the candies in Germany because they cause cancer. Ask yourself why have we been hit with such a dramatic cause of diabetes, cancer, autism, and all those old people diseases. We don't eat well. Whether we go out to a restaurant or not, our food here is simply garbage.
And this is all on living three month in Germany. not once did I have to add extra salt to my food, not once was I feeling bloated or had an upset stomach from eating just as much as I would eat if I were here in the US. It's crazy but traveling far far away from home does not only open your eyes but makes you realize how little you are compared to, well everything really, but makes you feel the greed you were raised to feel to be normal.
We like to think of ourselves as the center of the universe but are we really? No, many scientists from Socrates to Hawking have disproved that but here we are. Acting as the strongest most wonderful nation to exist. I do have to admit it is pretty badass. I mean whether you know now our not having that false brevity, that unproven greatness, and that undying absolutely non existent loyalty is just amazing. No matter how far I may roam I will always come crawling back to my home. Why?
Because America with all of its lying devotion, false idols, and murderous lovers, it's the place to become who you want. kind of like a giant Sodom with Last Vegas being Gomorrah. Yes, I have used a Bible reference and I feel it’s 99.9% true. And I love it but also despise it. Pretty much everyone who has become someone is corrupted and if you think they aren’t THINK AGAIN.
This place if full of sinners dying for one too many second chances. if we really lived by the Bibles words 99.9% of this world would be wiped out and spending the remainder of their days in the fiery Pits of hell. Why? because we are all selfish little assholes who parents didn't pay enough attention to them. And you know I'm right
